Haiku: Opposites Attract

Your eyes draw me in.
But why do you hate the sun.
I should walk away.

Gee Willakers

And so he makes life interesting
like so many other things can
Like the possibility of holding distance in her hand
or some other incomprehensible intangible thing
(Poetry and melted cheese actually go hand in hand)
The possibility of living in a dream
makes her continue to want and do things
that always seemed insensible like churning butter
or sewing denim into custom blue jeans
So should she want it easy or should she want amusing
She has known both but gee willakers
love is so confusing!

On Loving a Snake Woman

I.
Pull a serpent close
Ask should you ever let her in?
She’d say yesssSSsss
right before she sheds her skin.

II.
Or would you leave her in the garden bough
Regard her as something you’ll never know
Because either way it seems as though she is
the screwy one inside, all sputtered
Does she even want to know you love her
Guarded, coiled, her tongue is split
Should she ever let you in…?
She wants to speak but the words divide then
round and round a slithery line
Her thoughts stay silent inside of a secret mind

III.
She doesn’t know why you’d choose her
Each living soul owns a piece of time and
mystically yours includes her
Ummm go figure

On Addressing Remorse About Contents of a Shoebox on Father’s Day

Bye-bye, friend of Mister Lee.
I watched a man die in a dream of mine.
Pressed suit and gangster lean impressed
the father of a girl who never made time for
regular old dinners (aka RODs) or his own cleaners.

Big brother stands up to the chink-hater.
Wouldn’t say it with a fist in his face.
Kids take naps in the same room,
and one time I confused 7:30 evening for
the morning light.
I tried to wake him up but he said,
“What, you go to night school?”
Afterwards I felt so comfortable.

Down the way from the hobby store
We rode our bikes down the mason road
for yellow banana snow cones and
fruit chews from Casey Kasem at the liquor mart
Afterschool, back hip circles on the uneven bars
I was upside down a lot

Honestly, I hated growing up
When dad slept on a cot with
a pistol under the pillow tucked
I learned good parents conceal things just enough
But he found a teddy bear bracelet
in a customer’s pocket
Somehow someone else’s loss brought me
something that felt a bit like luck
Somewhere I still have his Limoges box
which held my baby teeth and
little key to my diary lock

So now I think about the shoebox

…(unfinished)

Afterall, I’m Not Afraid of Dying

Organized living beings find comfort in routine
because repetition tends to simplify and deceive
the price we pay for drudgery and toil
Everyday
Things change but we feel the same
when we labor and undertake
because we forget and deceive
the price we pay for getting old

Life becomes harder to excite
Travel and chaos no longer ignite any elements of surprise
Someday
Iilluminate touchscreens with your mind
Fly to Nepal and back in the same night
Fear technology, inept to develop, so just retreat
God, even progress feels obsolete

Everyday
Synchronized hot water boilers, travel clocks,
Men in watch towers,
Women in hot steam curlers,
Inmates anticipate the exercise hour
Boy on a school bus wearing his brother’s shoes,
Ammunition, dusty boots, shortage of food
Nine to five and nine times out of ten,
construction builds destruction
Thousands of buttons get pressed then turned
This is sameness; not as blissful as “always afternoon”

Organized living beings should find comfort in dying
because aging takes us on our way when we
ride the vector of ennui with new and believing eyes
To home that is “far beyond the wave”
Everyday
Inmates anticipate
We arrive there in our graves

Someday
Along the borders of the Lotos Land
Drop old knees down to pink and yellow sand
Not seduced to pick a lazy fruit
or sin to gluttonize with old friends
Here sameness only seems the same
Gold and bronze sun shines in infinite shades
Ask Eve and Adam, Odysseus, the mariner men
They say they died with merriment
Celebrate that disorder and chaos can sedate
that to work is to rest, that there is no inconvenience in delays
Every mountain peak and good acquaintance praised
Shadows dance and loiter in malaise
We endeavor and strive to thrive in life
but when we die we find no shortage of time
In death, nothing deceives the price we pay for humankind

High Flyer

Is it intelligible relief
or guileless disbelief that man’s cruelty could
coax a mastermind

When winged mammals are released
Changes occur in anatomy
The mind hardens to a tablet
and her heart widens like the sea
Like floating cranes
of wax paper origami
Conscience dances faintily
Delicate shapes of forgotten play
go on and pulse independently

Sooner or later she would perch a landing
And stew and begin to evaporate
But why, for who?
Faces like angry tomatoes try to make amends
because every soaring beast has its regrets
But in flight, pretty birds and angels don’t forget
a man’s word is as worthless as his breath

The Walking Woman

How fortunate she is in this existence
Under cumulus clouds she flares her parasol
And walks as slow as the sidewalk unfurls before her
Physicality churns a fancy
The woman’s buttered reality is sweet as
her morning crumpet
We have known her as a girl
but to know her after acquisitions
is surely an abysmal thing
She is fictitious

Rainy mornings
She drops to the bottom of a dark well
Manhole cover shelter
shields no due dates or penalties and
letters that state, “our records indicate…”
Unsure whether the cold rusty ladder
can support her weight
She becomes more real

She has rings on her fingers
and bells on her toes
She can hear clanks, pounds, and pings
where ever she goes
Not all women turn soft, sing, and murmur
when concerned with their comfort
or when securing self-nurturing things

In another existence
She walks as slow as the sidewalk unfurls before her
Bells jingle but she has sold her rings
Hair is black with no luster nor curls
Physicality churns a fancy, she controls and curbs it
We have known her as a girl
but to know her after acquistions
is a secondary contaminated thing

Night and Tomorrow

Night is when to be alive the most
Mystery fleas provide no requested service
Sorry to the most venerable host
The face of the ghastly ghost
raises one hand to the moon
which has no eyes nor rosy cheeks
no bulbous nose
A holy wafer, unsatiating crisp,
merely pointed at
The other arm a horizontal roadblock,
fallen trees, cautionary lines, surmountable boundaries
yet never crossed
This is the hour to be alive the most
A perfectly made bed and long to-do lists
Eyes glaze over clutter, magnets in fingertips
assemble fragments into wholes
then dismantle and start all over
Over and over and end
A game often played of holds and heads
It’s the most favoritest pasttime of dualists
who pray before bed

Black Holes

Critical eye says I’m a pretty girl
A perfectly kissable face that seems
So out of place on a body like mine

Seeing stars and chest pounding
All due without the trauma
And I’ll do, per the usual
You can think critically and breathe easily
When trust is not so far away

Close your critical eyes
Are you spinning
Are you falling
Do you like it or are you afraid

Is the end getting closer or is it getting farther away?

Staring Into the Sea

This is the only poem I’ll write for the sea
The matriarch’s gown that swallows me
Terror and peace in a getaway,
Float forever and sink away

Cold and brine
Black and white twilight shine
But at another place and time,
Hot swim in topaz and tropic clime

What she hides under there
Intimacy, biology, intimations of mortality
Explore all the secrets of the sea
Unlock every county desk with a single key
Uncover top drawers and mattress beds
Exploit the gifts of magnificency

Traps and lures and toxicity
Humanity begets vulgarity
Lower the nightgown to display
A bloody breast from a hurled glass ashtray
Lost treasures and recovery
Rehabilitation, shattered glass
Looking back, eyes with dark circles under
Can you see what we can see when we stare into the sea